Writing My Thoughts on a Napkin

I've been thinking how much I really miss writing. I use to love to write, all the time. Creating stories and telling all of my thoughts and dreams through different characters. It was so exciting. I miss that so much. But everytime I set myself down infront of my computer to write something, nothing comes out. I have so many thoughts and so much emotion and no way to express it. Its in me almost like it may never come out. And that's really scary.

Anyway, I want to try to start writing again. Every night as I try to fall asleep I create this story in my head. Usually a love story. And I set it up like its a movie and it helps me go to sleep. I cant even remember how long i've been doing this....it seems like years but maybe not. I keep the same story going on for a while, until i finish it or i get tired of it. Then i set up new characters and a new plot. Sometimes I try to jot them down on paper and make the story into an actual story. But it's never as great as it is in my head you know?

I really want to start writing. Really bad. Even just a short story will do. Maybe go into one of my old books. I have one that I'm almost 100 pages into. It needs a lot of work though.

ANYWHOOO lots going on these days and I just need to keep my head straight.

Beautiful Word: Serendipity (Finding something nice while looking for something else)

slurping slurpees

right now i am slurping up a slurpee.

Music: Helplessness Blues by Fleet Foxes

I saw fleet foxes this weekend! I don't think I have ever heard something as beautiful as Robin Pecknolds voice. They were just amazingly amazing. Beards and all :)

AND HOLLY JESUS OF INDIE BOYS! I have never seen so many hipster/indie boys in my life! Lets just say my chin was on the floor the entire time. hehehe.

IN other news. Theres really not that much going on. Its been so hot lately, its seemed like summer. I cant wait! I just want it to come already! Its kind of funny. Every year i look forward to summer and hope and get my expectations up like something amazing and different is going to happen. I'm going to meet someone who will change my life. I'm going to go somewhere that will alter how i look at the world...and every year i come back to school with the same exact mind frame with the same "good" response when people ask how my summer was. Its the same when summer is happening. I set all these goals and hopes that things will be different when i get back to school, and they never really are.

soon it will be summer. And i'll have my own photos to share :)

With that in mind i will follow in my friends step on her blog and give myself a list of what I plan to do this summer:

Go to the beach at least 3 times a week

slurp many many slurpees

go to tons of concerts and meet tons of hipsters

get a job

watch re runs of full house

take a long drive somewhere

visit long beach

take pictures of everything

drink cola in high waisted shorts and a bikini top

chill with my friends.

go to the park

watch the sun rise

meet new people (boys)

and just have fun

Lastly, with the fleet foxes voices in mind....

Beautiful Word: Fleet Foxes